When The Timing Is Right

Timing.

It can be so off sometimes.

Whether it be in a relationship, a job, making big life decisions.

Sometimes timing is just off.

But let's say you meet someone and you really hit it off.

You go on a few dates and have a great time but then things fizzle out.

Does that mean it just didn't work out?

Maybe you're not meant for each other?

Or maybe the timing just isn't right?

There are all these factors that could play in the situation.

So, if any of you read my blogs, you'll know that I went to Vegas recently.

And boy did I fall in love.

Not only did I fall in love with the city, but I fell in love with myself, amongst other things as well.

But what I did realize is that the timing was right.

I've always wanted to go to Vegas.

And I could have gone multiple times with different people but I never did.

Because the timing wasn't right.

I was meant to go when I did, with who I did, to experience Vegas the way I got to experience it.

I've been wanting to make a change in my life for quite sometime.

After going through the loss of my mother, not being able to have my dad around, a failed marriage, I've been waiting for the "right time" to make a change.

And what a more perfect time for that to happen.

Because 10 years ago, I would've never been able to make this change.

I needed to find myself.

And I have.

I know who I am, I know what I want in life, I know where I want to go and places I want to see.

So, if you're struggling with making a decision, or whether to jump into the relationship, or take the big new job, you'll know when the time is right.

"Patience is the calm acceptance that things can happen in a different order than the one you had in mind." David G. Allen

But things have a way of always working itself out. 

And when it does...

And it's an awesome feeling.

That perfect timing. 

And As for me, now is the perfect time. 

NOW. IS. THE. TIME.

Until next time...

I Miss You

It's the eve of your birthday. 

You would've been 63 years old. 

I'm sitting here at what should be your headstone wishing you had an actual headstone. 

But it's so hard. 

Finding the perfect one for you. 

Because that's what you were. 

So you only deserve the best. 

I often look at them thinking I'm ready. 

But the anxiety kicks in. 

Am I making the right decision. 

Why aren't you here to guide me on this?

And then I start miss you all over again. 

Your voice. 

Your laugh. 

Your smile. 

Your curly hair. 

The comfort of your shoulder. 

Your wisdom. 

But most of all I just miss you. 

Three years and it still feels like yesterday. 

Sitting in the hospital. 

Hearing you tell us goodbye. 

Watching you dance as you told us you loved us. 

Listening to you tell us you were ready to go. 

That you wanted to see your mom and dad again.  

But most of all I just miss having my mom. 

I miss spending lazy days with you. 

I miss calling you and arguing with you that you were right. 

I miss when I couldn't sleep I could call you and you were always up playing candy crush. 

There's just so many things I miss. 

I hope to see you again one day momma. 

But for now, continue to be the best guardian angel. 

Until next time. 

Once A Woman Is Done, She's Done

Women. 

We can be so forgiving.

We give more than we receive.

We let our buttons get pushed and pushed.

But eventually enough is enough.

And once we are done, we are DONE.

Okay, so here's what's on my mind...

You ever fall so hard for someone even you're like "how TF did this happen?"

Now you're all like....

I miss YOU.

I miss the Good Morning texts.

I miss the times we laughed.

I miss the times we spent together.

Things happen, people change, yet here we are still holding on.

For what though....

As women we think, they'll change.

They'll come back around.

But we are only fooling ourselves.

GIRLFRIEND, he isn't going to change.

He isn't going to be the man you want him to be.

Stop waiting on his text.

Stop looking for that phone call.

Because if there's anything I know is that you can move on.

YOU CAN LET GO.

And when you do it'll be the best damn feeling you've ever felt.

There's someone out there better.

There's someone who will show you the attention you want and DESERVE.

There's someone out there who won't make you question their feelings for you.

So do it.

Everyone needs a little push and inspiration.

It isn't going to be easy.

It's going to be hard.

But one day you will look back and wonder why you ever worried about him in the first place.

You'll even try to remember the feelings you caught for him.

It was lust not love, honey.

You'll know true love.

And it's out there.

You DESERVE something better that's out there.

Until next time...

Ryder looks down at Leighton. She stands there trying to catch her breath. That's been an issue every time he's around. He grabs her chin. His hands are so rough. She remembers why she fell in love with him so long ago. His touch. The strength yet softness behind it. He tilts her head up to him. "Leighton, just give me a chance to love you and I swear on everything we will be the happiest we can be together. And true happiness. Not that bullshit you talked yourself into with him.There's so much I am going to show you that you won't be able to question my feelings towards you even if you wanted to."

She drops her head into his chest, tears rolling down her face. She knows this is going to be a hard decision. But her heart loves him. Her body longs to feel more of his touch. She wipes her tears and steps back. She looks away knowing if she looks into those deep blue eyes she'll get lost. Just like she does every other time. "Why now? Why should I trust you 10 years later? After you just up and walked out of my life I had to put myself together. It wasn't easy. I compared every man to you. I couldn't love anyone else like you. So why now.?" He grabs her on the small of her back and pulls her toward him. His tone deeper than it's ever been. His eyes only watching her. "Baby, I wasn't a man then, but I'm one now and I want to show you everything I know. I want to show you the world. I want to do things to you that I can't even begin to tell you because I'd make them happen right here, right now."