Once A Woman Is Done, She's Done

Women. 

We can be so forgiving.

We give more than we receive.

We let our buttons get pushed and pushed.

But eventually enough is enough.

And once we are done, we are DONE.

Okay, so here's what's on my mind...

You ever fall so hard for someone even you're like "how TF did this happen?"

Now you're all like....

I miss YOU.

I miss the Good Morning texts.

I miss the times we laughed.

I miss the times we spent together.

Things happen, people change, yet here we are still holding on.

For what though....

As women we think, they'll change.

They'll come back around.

But we are only fooling ourselves.

GIRLFRIEND, he isn't going to change.

He isn't going to be the man you want him to be.

Stop waiting on his text.

Stop looking for that phone call.

Because if there's anything I know is that you can move on.

YOU CAN LET GO.

And when you do it'll be the best damn feeling you've ever felt.

There's someone out there better.

There's someone who will show you the attention you want and DESERVE.

There's someone out there who won't make you question their feelings for you.

So do it.

Everyone needs a little push and inspiration.

It isn't going to be easy.

It's going to be hard.

But one day you will look back and wonder why you ever worried about him in the first place.

You'll even try to remember the feelings you caught for him.

It was lust not love, honey.

You'll know true love.

And it's out there.

You DESERVE something better that's out there.

Until next time...

Ryder looks down at Leighton. She stands there trying to catch her breath. That's been an issue every time he's around. He grabs her chin. His hands are so rough. She remembers why she fell in love with him so long ago. His touch. The strength yet softness behind it. He tilts her head up to him. "Leighton, just give me a chance to love you and I swear on everything we will be the happiest we can be together. And true happiness. Not that bullshit you talked yourself into with him.There's so much I am going to show you that you won't be able to question my feelings towards you even if you wanted to."

She drops her head into his chest, tears rolling down her face. She knows this is going to be a hard decision. But her heart loves him. Her body longs to feel more of his touch. She wipes her tears and steps back. She looks away knowing if she looks into those deep blue eyes she'll get lost. Just like she does every other time. "Why now? Why should I trust you 10 years later? After you just up and walked out of my life I had to put myself together. It wasn't easy. I compared every man to you. I couldn't love anyone else like you. So why now.?" He grabs her on the small of her back and pulls her toward him. His tone deeper than it's ever been. His eyes only watching her. "Baby, I wasn't a man then, but I'm one now and I want to show you everything I know. I want to show you the world. I want to do things to you that I can't even begin to tell you because I'd make them happen right here, right now." 

What Happens In Vegas

I just got back from Vegas on Saturday and I literally could pick up and go back right now. 

I wish I was still there. 

Still feels like a dream. 

So it was my first time, and let me tell you what... 

I FELL IN LOVE!

I fell in love with the lights, the energy, the noise, the people, and the scenery. 

It was more than I could've ever asked for. 

I was fortunate enough to go on this trip. 

And let me tell you, I was very spoiled while there. 

I got multiple limos, got taken to all the hotels, the light show at the Bellagio, Fremont Street, the pool at Mandalay Bay, Hakassan Night Club in MGM. I mean it was AMAZING!!!  

I am constantly talking right? 

I love it. 

But when I realllllly enjoy something, I get quiet.  I embrace it. I let it all sink in. 

In Vegas, I was quiet. 

It was a dream come true. 

I made friends with random strangers at the pool. 

I paid a little Mexican man with an accordian to play my favorite song in Spanish. 

It was surreal. 

My only regret was not going to cirque du soleil and to see my all time favorite band, The Chainsmokers. 

That's okay, there will be a next time. 

But while in Vegas I realized something, life is meant to be lived! 

Life is short. 

And you have to experience it. 

You have to embrace your life and live it. 

Make things happen. 

Take chances. 

Travel the world. 

Step out of your comfort zone. 

Life. Your. Life. Dammit. 

I'm 28 years old, I'm single, I have two dogs, a house and a good job. 

But what I don't have is anything holding me back from accomplishing my goals and dreams. 

And I don't have anything holding me back from getting up and going. 

New city, new lights, new feels...

I want it. 

I need it. 

I desire to explore the NEW. 

It's time to make a change. 

Because Vegas, I want more of you. 

I want you whenever I want to have you. 

But I want to travel.  

I need to see more. 

There's more to life than the old local honky tonk. 

There's more to life than sitting at home watching tv. 

There's a world out there and I'm going to find it. 

And maybe, just maybe, I'll get to experience this world with someone by my side. 

But for now, I'm going to live. 

And you should too. 

Until next time....

Never Give Up

I've been up since like 4:30 this morning and I seriously don't know why. 

So I waste time on social media and in the meantime I check my Timehop. 

Well, this pretty little gem showed up. 

My sweet and hard working momma graduated from college 9 years ago today. 

So, in honor of her I thought I'd share some of her story. 

My mom graduated from Prairie View A&M with a degree in Criminal Justice and Child Psychology. 

I swear I say it better than I do my own degree. 

That's because I've had plenty of practice bragging on her. 

My mom attended college for 15+ years, single mom of two kids(one being my wild ass) and working full time. 

Originally my mom was a hairdresser. 

When her and my dad were married she did hair at a local salon growing up. 

When they divorced she knew she had to make steadier money and of course have insurance for herself and what not. 

So my mom went to work as a CO(Correctional Officer) as we've heard that term so many times growing up.  

She was working in Huntsville and going to school at Sam Houston State as well. 

I remember her telling us she'd go to work, then sleep in her car until it was time to go to class. 

I was young and didn't quite understand it all but looking back now it's just one of then many reasons I respect the hell out of her.  

Anyway while she worked in Huntsville for a while she took classes maybe only 1 or 2 classes at a time. 

So you can imagine how long it was going take her at that rate. 

I remember at one point when she was at Blinn, she had a night class and one night she had a test and couldn't find anyone to watch me. 

So, I went with her. 

I remember being so annoyed I had to go take a college test(little did I know I would have that same feeling years later), LOL! 

When I walked in her professer gave her the test and my mom apologized for having to bring me. 

I remember the professor telling my mom it wasn't a problem at all and asked if I wanted to take the test too!

My eyes lit up! 

A real college test! (haha)

So I got a scantron and the professor showed me how to bubble my answers in. 

I'm pretty sure I made an A that day. 

And honestly I know my mom was happy something had my attention because let's be honest, if I got bored I would've started talking and we all know how that goes, no stopping me there! 😉

Anyway, my mom stayed at it. 

Whether she was working at a unit in Navasota or Huntsville, she was attending one of the local colleges. 

When she scored a really good job at Prairie View working in their Registrar's office, I remember her telling us she was going to go take classes there as well. 

Of course, mom being who she was, made friends everywhere. 

She came home one day telling me she met the softball coach and told him all about me and how she was going to get me on that team. 

Well, she did, and maybe I had a little hand in it myself,  but how cool, I'd be going to the same college my mom was too!

Well, my freshman year I would tell professors who my mom was because I knew they knew her and if she was one of their students then I knew they knew how good of a student she was and to cut me some slack. Haha. 

I mean, it was Freshman year, so you know how that goes! 

Anyway, my mom had finally completely enough hours to receive her degree. 

That year she graduated with her long awaited but very well deserved Bachelor's degree. 

I remember when she got her Associates at Blinn and how proud she was. 

My grandma was there and I was wearing this awkward dress with my ugly short haircut too, but that doesn't matter. 

Unfortunately when mom graduated with her Bachelors my grandma had just passed away a month prior. 

I know how much my mom wanted her mom to be there for that day but we all know she was there in spirit 

I was 19 the day my mom graduated from college.  

19!

It took my mom over 15 years to graduate. 

I think at some point it wasn't about "that badass job" she knew she would get once graduating. 

I think it was about her accomplishing a personal goal of hers, her wanting to make her daughters proud of her,(which we already were, how could we not have been), and her wanting to prove to those who didn't believe in her, wrong. 

My mom was a badass. 

And she never gave up. 

We struggled financially, she had health issues, heck she even had multiple knee replacements but still she NEVER GAVE UP!!!

I mean heck, the day she passed, she still didn't give up. 

Her body was just shutting down... but believe me when I say she did still didn't give up. (You know what I mean for those of you who were there.)

Whether you're dealing with school stuff, life problems, or just a bad day in general...don't give up. 

Jsut when you think you've had enough, or when you just don't think you can take anymore.... that's when something great happens!

The end is just that much sweeter when you get there. 

This one's for you momma!

Until next time.