Showing posts with label Catholic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Catholic. Show all posts

Friday, July 31, 2015

Being Catholic

Yesterday I went to a funeral for someone in my husband's family.

The man was Catholic.

I was raised Catholic.

Technically, I still am Catholic. 

However, I've never really attended the Catholic church.

I went as a kid growing up but as I got older I really just stopped.

I can't say that I've ever really been a fan of the Catholic church. 

Or any church for that matter.

I am Christian and I believe in God and all, I just have never truly felt "Welcomed" at a church. 

When I was little I got my confirmation done while in Mexico with my parents. My sister had done her communion and so we both got our confirmations at the same time. Even though I still hadn't done my communion.

I was in Junior High when I decided to try and get it done. 

I took the classes(was the oldest person in the class) and dang near completed the course. However, I got sick and was unable to attend a class and they told me I wouldn't be able to do my communion. 

Well okay then.

I was pissed.

No like seriously eff you Catholic church lady who told me I wasted those Wednesdays coming to class to accomplish nothing.

I mean I guess I did learn something because I learned how to do a proper rosery, the our fathers, and hail marys.

But still, couldn't do my communion and to this day I can't even remember the Hail Mary. 

Anyway, I've still gone to Catholic church all of my life. 

I say the appropriate things when needed, however the only and (MAIN) problem that I have is that I am still unable to take communion during the service.

Well I think that's a load of crap.

Here I am, 26(almost 27) freaking years old and I still can't take the communion. 

I've been coming to your church for all of these years, half asleep, half annoyed because I can hardly ever understand the priest but I still come, it's what my family expects of me, so I do it.

STILL. NO. COMMUNION.

Well, here's the thing.... God knows I'm a little rebel and he knows that I am hard headed and that I have always done what I have wanted to do therefore I think I should be able to take the communion. I mean, doesn't everyone get a little hungry during the service and that little piece of cracker/bread (whatever it is) could do just the trick to hold you over.

I mean why not. 

You wouldn't let me get my communion done because of your rules and still I've come to church anyway.

And if I take the communion without really being allowed to, then I ask God for forgiveness, won't he just understand anyway?

IDK!

God, if you're listening, let me know what's up.... I sure get tired of watching everyone else take communion and I just sit there. 



Until next time....